ive seen it before.

I was having an okay day today, until I got off of work. Usually, it's the other way around. Today was different. I still worry about people I have loved in the past. I worry about people I used to know in the past. I worry about people I hate. I don't know why I do this. I hate how I do this. But, it honestly breaks my heart to see people going down the wrong path. I wish I could scream at them and tell them. I wish I could scream at myself when I know I'm going down the wrong path. I'm not ready for this. I'm not ready for love. I've broken my own heart too many times, from my own disappointments. I am losing hope in humanity and it's going to take some very special people somewhere in this world to show me how life works. I need a whirlwind. Something to lift me up from this world and carry me far, far away. I hate jealousy, I hate money, I hate negative energy, I hate conforming, I hate THIS feeling. I'm on the backburner. For everyone. I'm no one's priority. I need to change my own. I want to quit this life and move to L.A. with nothing but the clothes on my back and begin my dream life. I want to break free.